How much do you love? What do you sacrifice to have it?

How much do you lust? What ends do you reach to satisfy it?

I think thee are things that are free-sunshine, air, water in a stream, sincere smiles from strangers.

Everything else has a cost, or at least a requirement. Love calls to love, good to good.

Be cruel to a parent or a child, and even that love will become twisted and bitter, rotted at the roots.

Why do people think sex is free? There is always some type of exchange-to make both parties satisfied. Not monetary but other things. Tenderness, time, caring. Truth and or honesty.

Even God expects us to be nice to others, because He loves us. (Or She, depending on your inner world. )

So why do humans expect a cost-free exchange? Why d we scoff at women for wanting material things for the use of their bodies, when it was quite common all over the world to berate the one who gave her virginity away or let herself be used?

I have mentioned before that men do not look kindly to their women having affairs. One of the 1st responses is always, ” I take care of you and look how you repay me!”. Why does that come to mind so soon?

Because of the costs. Time, sweat, money go into relationships.

You do not have to be guilty. Othello, anyone?  But no matter, it is the thought that counts.

What does living and loving cost you? Do you value what is common, or do you seek the exclusive?

How much do you yearn? Have you mastered it? Or will it always be your master?

LHS is on my mind.

But my ass is in Canada.

Let’s just say I am healing.

Away from home with my super ex-bf for the holiday, so I will be brief:

I got another email from a man who wants to wear girl clothes and be humilated. I have gently told him that he needs to stop playing silly games and go get a pro, for it is gonna be hard to find a woman who wants to be bothered with that sort of thing. Yes, he also wants to be made to submit to man.

In truth, he wants to have a cock in his mouth but since he is not identified as gay, he wants a woman to help him, by making him. Yeah, okay.

I am sure there are women who will, but I doubt he wants them. He wants a woman that is not into that to go out of her way or one who is, to give him a freebie.

As a child of the free love era and a man who has decided that to pay a woman for any sort of sexual activity is weak, he is spinning his wheels in sand.

I cheerfully pointed it out to him, and he said that he is not averse to a pro but he prefers to find a woman who is in it for the love of the game. (I am sure you see my disgusted eyerolling.)

Of course, he has yet to ask his wife, who is there everyday, to hep him with his burning desire.

I told him, on my way out the door, that I hope when he gets to the emergency room, that he has a doc who is there for the love of the game and not collecting a paycheck. Good luck with that level of care.

People will pay their medical providers, accountants, stock brokers and lawn care dude. Why the hell do they not see that they want a service, which should be duly compensated for the time that it itakes to give it?

No, I am not going to do it. I have my limits and I really think that he should just go get a man and let the guy put him through the paces.

But as a rich alpha male, of course he can’t take the simple route, can he?

Do not seek the because - in love there is no because, no reason, no explanation, no solutions – Anais Nin