Good on paper but…

Love, that is.

I am trying but I cannot keep up.

Rarely do I fail but this time…

this time…

this time…

I see only defeat.

Was watching a program about teen street girls who are forced into sexual slavery. That is what it is-kids trying to survive, predators getting a few bucks off their desperation, jackals sucking the youth from the marrow of their bones for a 15 buck BJ. (Or whatever they are getting. Last I saw on my local news, it was between $10-20.)

Friend calls, I mention it. Of course, he has the story of the woman who was young and abused but was able to shoot the guy who pimped her out. That was offered as the antidote to my mental virus that kids do not make rational decisions and once they are caught in fucked up situations, it is hard to get out, to reverse the behavior.

Teens are vulnerable and as one girl related her story, she answered my question on why she liked the guy who was pimping her–she said it was the first time anyone seemed to like her, care about her and show her some attention.

I do not think it is that easy for exploited woman to walk away; I doubt if they can see past the end of the night, let alone to escaping. Top that doubt and fear with drugs and a convoluted tangle of dread has settled over a child( yeah, 14 is a kid)

Although the  super feminists strongly say it is not true, I do believe that most women are going to take orders form men. Thus, they stay in a variety of bad situations. I imagine some of it is biology, some ruthless social conditioning. A huge part has to be shame. ( Feel free to apply that to all women who are in weird arrangements with men, no matter that their age. )  I think that part of the feminine principle is receptivity. That is what makes women so attractive the ability to listen, receive, emote.

It is easy for me, a loved cared for, spoiled educated woman to hold her hands against her chest in shock and think ” why don’t the run?”  Run where? The family of origin does not want them,  they may be involved in drugs, people shun them as dirty and ruined, and last but not least, the law has a hared approach to them. nteens have to fit very limited circumstances if they are busted hooking in most states, to be treated as victims and not whores who should be ’sanctioned’.

A child spoke of how she got so tired,-so weary-of yet another man touching her, climbing onto her body, using her for sex. I could her her pain in her voice.

So, I sat there, saddened. Soul murder goes on everyday, Here, in private rooms , on street corners, in cars and parks. dark corners. There, the brothels across the world. And any other place where women can pay as little as a few bucks for something that a girl will not be able to forget.

However, in another chair, somewhere, another person say there and watched as well.And decided that those girls just are not trying hard enough to break free.

I argued with one, the friend on the phone and got his to see that it is not easy for those girls to flee.

What of the others, who were not challenged?

Will they look at a teen prostitute with pity, or with smug unexamined satisfaction?