Good on paper but…

I have made ( I hoped) a rapport with a nice guy, he is involved with film (scriptwriter). I thought we would be able to get along, as friends, but–

It happened. Not only did he reveal that he likes me, but that he has all these inner suppressed desires to be dominated. Not that I care, or will do it.

He lives on the other side of the country, so if I want to beat someone, I can just walk around my neighborhood and find a nice husband I can play with and beat.

Lately, too many guys who should be in the friend zone, where they belong, are bursting free of their boundaries. If I wanted to screw them, I would have by this point.

I won’t bring up money (Scriptie has enough to share but is too damn needy) and another friend is cheap. What am I supposed to do with that? Give out a freebie for old time’s sake?

No.

In fairness, I do not ask one to give more or less than any other guy. There is not much justice in this world, but there is some in my bed.

Some women are very easy to figure out, they are as simple as a summer’s day.

Should I be flogged for that? I am, for to get the treatment I want, I must lie; hide myself, my true feelings, my wants… under a cover of uncaring. Somehow, I am supposed to be shocked and bashful that a man who has fucked me actually wants to do something for me.

Sadly, it has worked. The more I lie, the more I pretend that I do not care for the sound of crisp bills sliding into my hand, the more I am able to get.
The things we naked apes do, to maintain the facade of civility.

I am very very tired but I need to write a few things down. Details and expansion later… -Many powerful men are kinky.

For me, 9 times out of 10, a man who wants to wear panties and be called “cock-hungry little girl” is someone who strikes fear and awe on the heart of others. 

-I am not sure what the financially-pressed kinky man does, as being kinky is costly. Not just for my time but for the materials, space, etc.

 -My most frequent request is dildo insertion and deep hard fucking from a strap-on. I am wondering when the female will be obsolete, as these men just make the final step to being with other men and are not discomforted by the sight of a hard cock. 

-I dominated a man, aged 60, who cried like a child after I entered him and got a rhythm going. I read that people find release of their emotional issues when they “let go” in the anal region. Afterward, he glowed. 

-I had another man, aged 40, who wants to suck big hard cocks, but only if I am there. I gently explained that I am not prop, so he should just got pick up a guy on the Net or the local gas station and call it a day. -Married men have many stories of what they are not having the sex they want, but not making any moves to have the sex they want. -I wonder if married women stop having as much sex, because they know that the husband is out pursuing others, no matter what she does. -If get married, will I too, be that way within 2-5 years???

 -I am batting away many more younger men than before, They see nothing wrong with my age but we are a lifetime apart, Anyone who is 10 years my junior yet as mature as me, may have had a hard life and I refuse to deal with that. -Younger men still want to play Romeo and Juliet. That is too bad, really. 

-For every good one I find, I have to reject 8-10 others -I have been on break for 3 weeks. I do like the vacation-time away from the madness.More later….forgive me, please.

I have so many stories to tell. Where to start???